This has been the year of hope, joy, happiness, finding who I am and positivity.
It has also been the year of loss, tears, pain, being lost for a time.
I am all about positivity and moving forward but I am a realist to an extent. With the good, comes the bad. With the happiness, comes a little bit of heartache. I am a firm believer in the bad existing to remind one just how special the good can be when it does happen.
This past year has felt like I have done the most growing up that I have ever done in my life. It has taken me time to realize truths, to recognize habits and actions. It has also taken me time to realize those who seek to destroy, are gone from the picture. Those who try to tear one down, exist simply to show one how strong one can be. Too much negativity, too much toxic of others can spill into one’s own life. It took me time to figure out how to stand on my own two feet and be confident in who I am. To know that I am strong, I am worth it and I can do it.
I have lost friends and sadly…my grandfather this past year. Losing him led me to shutting down for a time. I still cry. It still hurts. And I know I will miss him every day. I remember holding his hand in the hospital, cancer cruelty taking him from us, and he still had hope. He clung tight and knew what was going to happen and still had hope. I remember just watching him sleep with just the noise of the hospital in the background. I knew it was the last time I would see him. And it was.
He is one my angels, there is no doubt about it. I trust and believe in that wholeheartedly.
Whatever this past year has thrown at you – grow, be strong, stand proud and keep going!